Late night / Early morning Musings
Find it hard to sleep without writing down my thoughts: (They can be a bit disconnected and disorganised. Bear with me.)
Hope can be a dangerous thing. Contrary to popular belief, some people can hope too much. The sorry fact of life is that sometimes no matter how hard you try or want it, you might not be able to fix that broken radio. In the end, this pill of happy possibilities you feed yourself everyday will land up killing you.
My strategy: stop hoping. Start living. Enjoy the moment and not think about what will happen or rather what you hope will happen. Enjoy the element of surprise in every step. It might be good, or bad; and it will be fine. No?
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I must stop learning things the hard way. It’s killing me slowly. I always try but my heart gets in the way. Maybe what my friend said is true, I need to put my heart in the freezer. I quote her, “Do not be so soft. You are killing yourself.” Haha, and I thought I’m a tough cookie, apparently I am muah-chee*. Maybe I need to toughen up. Like the Bride from Kill Bill. Wake up from a coma and still be able to slaughter half of mankind.
*some sticky gooey glutinous rice dessert
ah… whatever. shall go sleep.
